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I know I have not been that active for the past months of 2019. My last and latest post is my 2018 year-ender and I haven’t got to posting any new contents for this blog of mine. I know that I don’t have that much supporters and readers that read my blog but if you are reading this, I apologize for just creating a new content again and I thank you very much that you are one of my supporters that keeps coming back supporting me; and if you are new here on my blog, welcome!

First and foremost, I apologize for not being that active on creating contents for my blog especially during these past few months due to the fact that I don’t have that much free time to do anything outside of my academic life. Now I can say, college life is really no joke and yes, I know that I am still new to such a thing and that it would soon get worse as I progress more into collegiate level but it is really no joke. One reason why during last summer I was so active on creating contents was because it was summer plus I didn’t have that much to do so all my effort and time were spent on creating contents. But that all changed when college came knocking on my door and took all my time, the only free time that I get I spent it on relaxing or rather sleeping just so that my human body and mind can rest for a bit before it is beaten up again by the academic life.

Yes, I am now telling you that this is more of a personal type of content because I have a lot on my mind and inside that I would like to let out and I know that writing about it can help me last through the struggles that I am going through right now.

The biggest struggle that I am going through right now is about my academic life, specifically with my History subject. I am not really a big fan of all that subjects that would require you to be a bookie or more efforts into memorizing and reading a plethora of information, but I do appreciate and adore History. For me, what makes history exciting for me is that I get a glimpse on what the world was back then plus discovering exciting facts and information that would help us learn why our world is what is right now. But with this issue, I am really struggling plus the professor is really not being of help at all. I an giving him the benefit of the doubt that he is really intelligent and amazing just to be intact with all this information BUT the way he teaches history – Philippine History – is nothing. Instead of giving us reliable readings or references where we could read and learn more about what he is talking about, he would only spit out all this information to us, not knowing if what he is talking about is still in align with the course module or not anymore, and then expect us to excel in his course. I mean that is just nonsense.

Personally, from a perspective of a student from this generation. Teachers should also ask themselves if their students nowadays are still learning from what they give their students or how they give it out. Teachers should realize, especially teachers that have been teaching for a long time now should think about changing the way that they teach their subject because they are not teaching the past generation that they know such ways worked; they are now teaching the future generations which we came with change and are here for change, so if the teachers would want change from us, they should also change first for the betterment of the students that would eventually affect the future better.

I know that this content would not really have a lot of attention, but if any one of you would like to share this content to people that are feeling the same way to how students or some students are being taught then share it because I know that it would help them also have a light on them knowing that they are not alone in feeling such ways towards certain types of teaching ways.

I’ll end this content with this for now, I still have a lot to share with you guys about my life and realizations that I am having in my life but that would be on another content - hopefully soon. So, thank you guys for reading and hearing out one of my major struggles in life right now.

|Personal| I know I have not been that active for the past months of 2019. My last and latest post is my 2018 year-ender and I hav...

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2018, gosh! Just imagine that, a new year has already come in. Reminiscing my 2018, I really feel like it happened in a blink of an eye like it was that fast - no joke. Maybe for some it was dreadfully long but for me it was as fast as the days are going by.

2019, a new year ahead and a new year to conquer. But for the meanwhile, let me just share you some of my highlights for the past year. I do apologize in advance due to not having sufficient visuals to really show you all the highlights of my 2018 due to the need of deletion of photos within my library because they are getting immense as days go by. Sorry, life of a photographer.

I can say for a fact, that my 2018 was really life-changing for me. And this is for the real me.

To start things off, for my first highlight – I know this is not typically a highlight for some but for me it is such a milestone. 2018 was the year the I learned how to flirt. Prior years to 2018, I am oblivious to all those intimacy and flirty stuff due to having a vantage point only with studying. But stepping in 2018 something clicked, a rush of desire to meet new people and hopefully have an intimate connection with them was realized. It was a milestone that acquainted with it is my start of using dating apps. Yes, I admit I use dating apps. Maybe not all have the courage like to me admit such activity, but hey majority of us are guilty.

In connection with the first highlight, 2018 was also the year... uhmm this might be a bit funny to reveal to all but hey it is a milestone for me. This is the year that I first got into a relationship. As far as you guys know I am gay, meaning that I got into a relationship with a guy - obviously. I know you are all bearing in mind that I am still too young to be thinking of such commitment, but we all know this is the age where all of us become reckless and make rash choices. That being said, this was also my first break up due to certain misfortunes between the both of us and that information should be kept only to me and to those whom I have trusted with the said information. And as far as I can say, it was heart-changing per say due to all the lesson I’ve learned during our relationship and after our break up and I know I have still a lot to learn when it comes to those aspects in life and I am open to learning them soon.

Stepping up in college is also a milestone in 2018 that I could not forget because for me it is a big thing. As me and my best friends reminisce our high school days, those were the days where we would dream of already being in college in an attempt to speed up the academic chapter in our life. But now seeing and experiencing how dreadful college can be and knowing that this is only the start of it, we are now talking of wanting to go back to high school where all was laid back and easy.

This year also marked my departure of being out of the closet. Meaning, this was the year when I came out to everyone I know that I am gay, even to my family. And luckily they accept me! Although my mom told me that it took dad some time to adjust to such concept nonetheless he accepts me for who I truly am. This, I can say is not only a milestone of my 2018 but also a milestone in my life.

2018 was a rough and an eye-opener year for me. It opened up my eyes to see what the world has in store for me, and what else I am to learn in the near future. 2019 is a fresh new start for everyone, and I hope I can do 2019 proud just like how proud I am to be me.

|Personal| 2018, gosh! Just imagine that, a new year has already come in. Reminiscing my 2018, I really feel like it happened in a...

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I do runs, I can jog for a good 30 minutes or do 20 rounds of jog if necessary. I am athletic as much as I can be – I’m once a member of one of the most prominent Cheerleading Teams here in the Philippines. I can do and be all those things if needed or if I want to. But why the heck is it more tiring when you choose to chase and run after Love?!

Okay, this is my first time writing a content that is really personal, especially coming from my point of view and being posted here on my blog.

So, I’ve been chasing for the ones that I like or had/have a crush on since I became maturely conscious to this world of ours. And to all my friends that knows me and all this shenanigans that I’m writing for this content — PLEASE KEEP QUIET! SOON LET’S MAKE GOSSIP HAHAHA! So the idea for this content actually came to me on a spontaneous note. Spontaneous being me whilst at the gym, then after my program for the day then it hit me *boogsh* then snap - over think.

I replayed all my puppy love and infatuation moments through the years, and I know I'm still young (just 18 years old) to do a content like this. This replaying happened during my break after the workout, fyi. And this lowered my mood through the entire afternoon, until the night.

It got me thinking: how the hell did my stamina kept on going? How did I manage to chase them for a good period of time and never get tired? And YES I know you'll think "You should keep on going, for it is Love." Yes I know that it "might" be Love, but I'm only human and our species tends to get tired on a normal basis, right?

Then on that day, while I was thinking of all the chasing I've done. The weight of each came crashing down, all the tiring that came with those chasing came crashing down on me during that day when I decided to think about it. Then there I felt tired.

I don't plan on making this long, I just want to say that I'm tired. But maybe for this time only, my perspective on this content may change through the course of time because everything in the world changes, even us. So yeah, for the mean time I'm tired but I can't wait for those chasing moments again but I wish that it would be me now that can and would be chased at. J